i'm seriously needing a break.

Ohmygosh. I don't know who or what should I choose right now, person who is literally in front of me, emotionally in front of me, or impossibly in front of me.
After all these months, I seriously need a break but I can just barely spill out everything thru my mouth.
yeah that thing is just too complicated, it changes everything in our life and I have no idea what's the point of doing all this stuffs. I wish to normally live up. But life won't be that simple.

People always ask, ARE YOU OKAY? I will just reply with the same answer, sentence, word and letters, no matter what. Saying that I'm good, fine, excellent, great or whatsoever. but in fact, I am truly not okay, but never people would understand that. Something that was emotionally carved right inside my heart, even I, myself don't believe that it hurts so bad.
I AM MISERABLE...